Returning Back To Normal Life

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Permalink Reply by GUCCI'S #1 Angel on February 12, 2010 at 10:10am

UM HOW DO YOU GET BACK 2 LIFE WHN A PART OF YOU IS GONE? YOU NO I REALLY DNT NO ITS BOUT 2 BE 6 MONTHS AN ITS STILL HARD 4 ME 2 EVEN WAKE UP IN THE MORNING , ITS ONLY (3) OF US AN HE WAS OUR ONLY BROTHER MY ONLY BIG BROTHER AN ITS FU*KED UP SUM NIGGAS TOOK HIM AWAY FROM US AN THAY STILL RIDIN AROUND HAPPY,, HIS NIGGA DNT GIV A FUCK ..BUT THAY GO GET THERES (TRUST ).. BUT I HAVE TO BE STROUNG 4 MY FAMILY SO I WAKE UP ANY WAY .... YOU NO I DNT THINK YOU CAN GET BACK TO LIFE ... YOU CAN ONLY BE STROUNG AN DNT THINK OF THE BAD THINK OF THE GOOD I NO HE STILL HERE WIT ME...PPL SAY LET THEM GO BUT YOU CANT SO I HOLD HIM IN MY HEART MIND & SOUL....

Permalink Reply by Deem on February 12, 2010 at 5:45pm

Yeah i can see where your coming from because you have to piece back togther your life.You are stuck feeling as your barely living at times.If you dont feel this way ill be speaking for only me.Sorry for your lost and i know exactly how it feels.I lost my brother like 5 years ago.Its hard as hell at times because i think of how life would be with him here.You have that person who you feel is your guide.Your right though its messed up how they act as if they dont care.Most of the time when you living.Its hard to tell who your real friends are and even in death you still dont know.Me personally i dont really worry about that too much.Anyway back to the subject your told by so many people to be strong and all that.Ive heard that so many times where i wanted to tell folks you cant possibly understand my pain i feel.They do understand but the whole stay strong thing has sailed the boat for me.Honestly ive been holding my tears for the main reason of i dont want my family seeing me all messed up.Your right because you think of the good instead of the bad cause you`ll get all fucked up inside.Nobody can ever tell me let these certain people who ive lost go.Id look at them crazy like you havent walked a mile in my air force ones.Appreciate you sharing that as i shared what i felt.Glad we can relate to each others pains.Guess the answer to my question would probably be keep all of them close to my heart and live til death`s kiss hits my body.

GUCCI'S #1 Angel said:

UM HOW DO YOU GET BACK 2 LIFE WHN A PART OF YOU IS GONE? YOU NO I REALLY DNT NO ITS BOUT 2 BE 6 MONTHS AN ITS STILL HARD 4 ME 2 EVEN WAKE UP IN THE MORNING , ITS ONLY (3) OF US AN HE WAS OUR ONLY BROTHER MY ONLY BIG BROTHER AN ITS FU*KED UP SUM NIGGAS TOOK HIM AWAY FROM US AN THAY STILL RIDIN AROUND HAPPY,, HIS NIGGA DNT GIV A FUCK ..BUT THAY GO GET THERES (TRUST ).. BUT I HAVE TO BE STROUNG 4 MY FAMILY SO I WAKE UP ANY WAY .... YOU NO I DNT THINK YOU CAN GET BACK TO LIFE ... YOU CAN ONLY BE STROUNG AN DNT THINK OF THE BAD THINK OF THE GOOD I NO HE STILL HERE WIT ME...PPL SAY LET THEM GO BUT YOU CANT SO I HOLD HIM IN MY HEART MIND & SOUL....

Permalink Reply by GUCCI'S #1 Angel on February 13, 2010 at 10:42am

YOU NO WHTS SO SO CRAZY IS THAT B4 MY BROTHER GOT KILLED IT WAS LIK I FELT IT LIK HE STAYED ON MY MIND MORE THEN EVER AN I WOULD TELL MY BUDDYS "IF SUMIN HAPPEN 2 MY BROTHER ILL GO CRAZY" AN I WOULD WANT 2 BE AROUND HIM MORE LIK IF IM RIDIN DOWN THE STREET BY MY SELF OR EVEN WIT PPL HIM GETIN HURT WOULD JUS POP UP IN MY HEAD I NEVER SAID NOTHEN SHIT I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY OR SUMIN (MABE I SHOULD HAV TOLD HIM :( TELL I HEARD SUM LADY TALKIN SAYIN SHE FELT SUMIN BAD WAS GO HAPPEN 2 SUM 1 SHE NEW..FU*KED UP.... THEN I HAD THE CHANCE 2 SPEND SUM TIM WIT HIM THE DAY HE GOT KILLED BUT I KEEP DRIVEN AN SAID TO MY SELF I BE BACK... THEN DAT NIGHT AT 10:50 I GET DAT CALL... (AUG.13.09) AN ITS 6MONTHS TODAY AN I FEEL LIK HURTIN SUM 1.. I BET NO 1 REMEMBERS THAT WHTS GO BE CRAZY AN I HATE THAT CAUSE HE DID SO DAM MUCH 4 THESE'S NIGGA'S 2 MUCH DAT WHY I DNT HAV FRIENDS JUS BUDDY'S BUT ANYWAY SO MANY OF MY FAM HAV PASSED BUT HE IS THE ONLY ONE DAT HURT THE MOST... SUMTIMES I THINK THAT I COULD SEE HIM RIDIN PASS ME SAYIN PEACE OR EVEN STOPIN 2 SAY WHTS UP WANT 2 SMOKE 1..MISS HIM LIK CRAZY NOW WHO IM GO TALK ABOUT OUR SISTER 2...LOL... BUT I THANK HIM 4 GIVIN US A LIL NEICE AN THANK GOD 4 HIS BABYMAMA (WIFE) CAUSE SHE GOT SHOT WIT HIM.. AN THAY BOTH REMIND ME OF HIM SO MUCH... SO YOOU RIGHT KEEP DEM IN YOU HEART AN SOUL AN YOU'LL MAKE IT ...HUH??

Permalink Reply by ashley staten on February 13, 2010 at 1:00pm

DAMN DIRT WHY U HAVE TO LEAVE US SO SOON???SHIT AIN'T DA SAME NO MORE...I HATE TO SEE YOUR FAMILY IN SO MUCH PAIN...BUT THEY ARE SO STRONG HERE WITHOUT U HERE...WHAT'S SO CRAZY IS I ENDED UP PREGNANT AND HAD A LIL BOY WHEN YOU PASSED AWAY...EVERYTIME I SEE YOUR DAUGHTER I SEE YOU IN HER...SHE SO BEAUTIFUL...I DIDN'T KNOW YOU THAT LONG BUT IT SEEMS LIKE WE BEEN FAMILY FOR FOREVER...U KEPT IT SO SO REAL DATS Y YOU HAD SO MANY HATERS...NO ONE WILL EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE BELEIVE THAT

TO ANGEL..
I CAN'T SAY I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL BUT WHEN I ALMOST LOST MY BROTHER I CALLED YOU AND YOU WAS RIGHT THERE FOR ME...WHEN YOUR BROTHER LEFT YOU I HATED TO SEE YOU CRY BECAUSE I NEVER SAW YOU LIKE THAT...IT STILL HURTS TO DIS THIS...I WANT LET YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU CUZ AND I'M ALWAYZ HERE FOR YOU...YOU TOOK ME IN AS FAMILY AND YOU BARELY EVEN KNEW ME AND I WANT TO THANK YOU SO MUCH THAT...KEEP YA HEAD UP KEEP LETING THEM HATERS HATE...

Permalink Reply by GUCCI'S #1 Angel on February 13, 2010 at 1:50pm

THANKS CUZ YOUR THE BEST I NO YOU HERE 4 ME AN IM HERE 4 U ALWAYZ NO DAT ... WHT REALLY FUCKED UP IS A FRIEND WAS FOUND DEAD DIS MORNIN SHE WAS ONLY 18 SO CRAZY AN ON THE 13TH....DAMN

Permalink Reply by Deem on February 14, 2010 at 1:48pm

That was crazy though because when you feel like that.It hits you like is this a sign that im suppose to tell them something.I use to hang out with my brother a whole lot before he was in a car crash.I usually liked seeing him anytime.Just like your brother cause mine meant everything since i was the youngest out of the boys.You said the same thing i say about a few people who are special in my life.It hurts i know and really i suppose when may 23rd comes around im meant to forget that day.I guess if i remeber i may just break down or something like that.I know how it feels cause at the time of the news i just was shocked.It didnt sink in until i got older.Times when i would remeber the laughter and funny times.Id be like damn why did he leave this world so dang quick.I just think about the times that make me laugh.I never felt like going up somebody head but i was mad that day just mad,hurt and sad all at the same time.I couldnt and didnt want to believe he was gone.I feel you on the buddy thing because at this point i cant really care about who is real and who is not.Those who are real will show how much they really care.Those who dont will show it hoping you dont catch it.Its make sense over the years now.It makes sense to have at least one person in yo life that understands you all the way.Someone who wont shoot you down but lift you up and guide you to the right.I know you have one bestfriend who has been there through your ups and downs.I have that and im so freaking glad cause without my dogg it would be hard for me to get by in life i know thats the truth.Things have happend in my life where i too would want to run to my brother.I cant because he`s not here and on graduation day i wanted to cry.I stayed strong for the fact that he would want me too stay strong.Im glad he helped me pass the graduation test.Yeap like i said we keep them in our hearts they will never depart from us at all.

GUCCI'S #1 Angel said:

YOU NO WHTS SO SO CRAZY IS THAT B4 MY BROTHER GOT KILLED IT WAS LIK I FELT IT LIK HE STAYED ON MY MIND MORE THEN EVER AN I WOULD TELL MY BUDDYS "IF SUMIN HAPPEN 2 MY BROTHER ILL GO CRAZY" AN I WOULD WANT 2 BE AROUND HIM MORE LIK IF IM RIDIN DOWN THE STREET BY MY SELF OR EVEN WIT PPL HIM GETIN HURT WOULD JUS POP UP IN MY HEAD I NEVER SAID NOTHEN SHIT I THOUGHT I WAS CRAZY OR SUMIN (MABE I SHOULD HAV TOLD HIM :( TELL I HEARD SUM LADY TALKIN SAYIN SHE FELT SUMIN BAD WAS GO HAPPEN 2 SUM 1 SHE NEW..FU*KED UP.... THEN I HAD THE CHANCE 2 SPEND SUM TIM WIT HIM THE DAY HE GOT KILLED BUT I KEEP DRIVEN AN SAID TO MY SELF I BE BACK... THEN DAT NIGHT AT 10:50 I GET DAT CALL... (AUG.13.09) AN ITS 6MONTHS TODAY AN I FEEL LIK HURTIN SUM 1.. I BET NO 1 REMEMBERS THAT WHTS GO BE CRAZY AN I HATE THAT CAUSE HE DID SO DAM MUCH 4 THESE'S NIGGA'S 2 MUCH DAT WHY I DNT HAV FRIENDS JUS BUDDY'S BUT ANYWAY SO MANY OF MY FAM HAV PASSED BUT HE IS THE ONLY ONE DAT HURT THE MOST... SUMTIMES I THINK THAT I COULD SEE HIM RIDIN PASS ME SAYIN PEACE OR EVEN STOPIN 2 SAY WHTS UP WANT 2 SMOKE 1..MISS HIM LIK CRAZY NOW WHO IM GO TALK ABOUT OUR SISTER 2...LOL... BUT I THANK HIM 4 GIVIN US A LIL NEICE AN THANK GOD 4 HIS BABYMAMA (WIFE) CAUSE SHE GOT SHOT WIT HIM.. AN THAY BOTH REMIND ME OF HIM SO MUCH... SO YOOU RIGHT KEEP DEM IN YOU HEART AN SOUL AN YOU'LL MAKE IT ...HUH??